In the evening before I lie down to sleep
I feel the tears coming to me.
I beg them to go away,
I plead them to stop,
But they do not.
When i woke in in the morning,
Tired from fighting the ragged sobs.
I put on my biggest smile
And pretend I have no heart.
I smile, laugh, talk, and giggle,
All the time thinking,
"look me in the eyes..
Why can't you see the pain in my eyes?"
I ask myself in the solitude of my room,
"What have I done?"
Not understanding why I have all this pain.
I curse at myself, my cold heart shattered.
I feel the pain built up from many a lonely eve.
I feel the betrayal, the neglect.
I screamed silently.
But nobody heard my call.
What have I done to deserve this..
I cry myself to sleep again,
An unforgiven soul with a sin none recall.
@ 11:45 AM
